“By June, you’re going to be nowhere you expected to be, and everywhere you want to be.”

~ A prediction made to me by Michael Nourse, an expert Vedic Astrologist.

It’s not June yet.

But this prediction becomes more true by the day.

I’m in a place I thought I’d never be.

Back to college.

Working a job.

Playing quarterback.

Publicly speaking about God, spirituality, astrology, and consciousness.

And I DEFINITELY never thought I’d be the guy giving people astrology and oracle readings at parties.

If you had told me this would be my reality two years ago, I would have called you insane.

But yet, here we are.

In this letter, I want to explain how I got here, what my experience has been like, and where (I think) I’m heading forward.

Let’s dive in:

*BTW

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How I Got Here

I went to the jungle of Peru last October to sit with ayahuasca five times to deepen my spirituality.

I came out the other side going back to college to play quarterback.

There are plenty of details to the story, but essentially, I had a dream where I realized my heart and soul wanted to play football again.

The moment I left the jungle, I began searching for a school that would let me play quarterback.

After about 100 emails, one school texted me back:

Illinois Benedictine.

I chatted with the coach, set up a time to visit, and committed the first week of December.

The moment I knew I was supposed to be there was when I went into the locker room for the first time and Aaron Rodgers, the man who got me into psychedelics and plant medicines in the first place, was on the TV screen, with the words “Ayahuasca Enthusiast” next to him.

Thankfully, I snapped a picture.

Within a few weeks, I found an apartment, moved in, and began classes and football lifts the first week of January.

From there, the last 5 months have been a whirlwind.

Back In School

Being back in school has been a jarring, surreal, and often comical experience.

I’ve written plenty of Twitter posts and newsletters on how the education system is outdated, why I dropped out of college, and how the internet is the new university system (which I still agree with, btw), yet here I was back in school.

Now I was in intro classes with 19-year-old freshmen trying to explain who I was and how I got there.

I tried to find the balance between fitting in and staying true to my authentic self, but it was a struggle, especially at first.

I outwardly appeared as just another dude on the football team.

But I was also giving speeches about LSD, the psychedelic revolution, and consciousness.

Sometimes, I think I overshared or went a bit too far. What I was saying or writing went over the heads of my classmates and teachers.

But I have become so accustomed to writing about the fullest range of my experience and curiosities online that it was often challenging to conform to a rigid box that an assignment or a class required.

I simply had no interest in doing so.

My grades reflect this.

They’re okay (I think). But I honestly pay them very little mind. I’m curious to see my report card next week, now that finals are over.

I showed up for exams trusting my intuition to guide me to the right answers, turned in homework with minimal effort, and used AI A LOTTT.

In class, when I went, I mostly sat in the back corner, writing and building my own projects, with one ear half-listening to the teacher so I could answer a question or two to get that participation grade - lol. (;

The reason is, I’d rather invest my time and creative energy into my own writing, podcasts, businesses, projects, and creations.

I’ve really squeezed by in school with minimal effort and maximal efficiency.

School wasn’t the reason I came back to school.

Football was.

But what came with the blessing to play football again was the responsibility to be in school again and finish my degree.

Sometimes, to do what we want to do most, we have to do things that aren’t as fun, exciting, and glamorous.

However, there have been great moments being back in the classroom.

I’ve met a bunch of cool, young kids, and gotten to know them and their stories, kids I wouldn’t have met if I were just a football player.

I feel like I understand my generation to a much greater depth than I did before coming back to school.

This was a big and, at first, hidden reason why I believe I was called to come back.

Quarterback

The biggest reason I was called to come back was to play quarterback, and at a much deeper level than appears on the surface.

My intrinsic nature is a quarterback.

I played QB since I was 5.

I’m a Leo. 🦁 ♌️

My entire life, I was the one starting side projects, group chats, and organizing parties and gatherings.

I always felt most aligned and energized when I was in the position of quarterback, inside and outside of football.

It’s quite literally written in my cosmic energetic blueprint.

Now, when I went to play D1 college football at Northwestern, I switched positions. I became a wide receiver so that I could play at a higher level. And I gave away my authentic frequency in the process.

From this positional misalignment, addictions, vices, and mental health issues all began for the first time.

It wasn’t until I reclaimed agency over my life, stepped back into the driver's seat, quit football, and began putting myself first that I began to spiral upward again.

My life since then has been a journey of rediscovering and deepening into internal alignment, which I have realized has a lot to do with playing QB, both inside and outside of football.

In a business context, ghostwriting and freelancing are “wide receiver energy.”

Whenever I was only ghostwriting and building someone else’s business, I felt misaligned, burnt out, had low energy, and lacked purpose.

Similarly, being the CEO and head of strategy is “quarterback energy.”

Whenever I’ve been building, launching, and fulfilling my own projects, I’ve felt most creative, passionate, motivated, and fulfilled.

Now, I can play other positions, and do enjoy it.

I was always a bit of a utility guy in every sport.

I could play receiver, running back, corner, safety, nickel, and maybe even a bit of linebacker.

In baseball, I could also play 2nd base, shortstop, 3rd, 1st, Center, or either of the corner outfield positions.

I actually enjoy playing other positions for a brief time, so long as my main position and energy is that of a QB.

Coming back to college to play quarterback was a test of my adherence to my desired frequency and trust in myself.

I have always felt best when I was playing QB, and love being that leadership role, but there has often been an insecurity around my worthiness and abilities to play the position, in every area of my life.

My best explanation as to why is my Aquarius moon (my emotions and subconscious), or the fact I grew up always being the youngest kid on every sports team.

Leo Sun + Aquarius Moon = The Archetype of “The Hesitant King”

These subconscious blocks, either by nature or nurture, have created an insecurity that has manifested in many areas of my life.

When I first had the idea to play QB again in the jungle, it came with both excitement and anxiety.

On the surface, it sounded awesome. Running around, throwing the ball, becoming a leader of a team? It all sounded straight out of a movie.

But, there was also fear. Was I really good enough? What are these new people going to think of me? Am I going to have to speak in front of the team?

I have realized over the past few years that anything worth pursuing comes with the prerequisite that fear will have to be repeatedly transcended along the way to reach the desired goal.

So, I decided to look the fear in the face, and move forward despite it.

And so far, the time has been magical.

My teammates and coaches have made the transition easy.

Coach Whitley, Coach Ponx, Coach Wags, Alex Siebens, Nick Alvey, Hundley Stallings, and Alex Corbett are just a few names that took me in with open arms and made me feel a part of the team from the moment I stepped on campus.

Our 15 spring practices were some of the most fun I’ve had in my entire life.

Throwing a touchdown against the starting defense, scrambling around making plays, and just being outside under the stars with the boys playing the game I love filled my heart and soul with so much joy.

Each time I stepped on the field was an absolute blessing.

There’s also been some very strange synchronicities.

When I was in the jungle in October, after I got the realization to play again, the song “Bad Romance” by Lady Gaga kept playing in my head on repeat.

It was strange as I never really listened to or liked that song, but it kept playing over and over.

I almost sang it in front of the group in an ayahuasca ceremony, but (probably wisely) held back.

Fast forward to March.

We are about halfway through spring practice, and we go lift in the weight room at 11pm.

Our strength coach, Coach Wags, would always get in this funny mood where he would hop on the aux and play Lady Gaga.

The song he kept playing?

Bad Romance.

When I heard it, it clicked.

I was in absolute shock and awe.

What the f*ck was going on here!?

My best explanation is my subconscious and higher self were playing the song in my head 5 months ago because, outside the illusion of 3D, linear space and time, and in quantum reality, my higher self already knew the path forward!

If that isn’t some quantum magic and stepping outside the confines of space and time, I don’t know what is!

Full Embodiment Of Who I Am

Since I have gone on this spiritual journey over the past few years, I have changed a lot from the football player and economics student I was three years ago.

These domains of my life, which I have now returned to in the roles of football, school, and even business, have revealed triggers in my subconscious and tested my integrity to my new frequency.

I have no problem speaking about astrology, spirituality, and all things esoteric to my internet friends who are into all the same things as me.

But when it came to knowing and sharing the truth of who I was, especially right upon returning to college, I felt out place, insecure, and timid at times around people I was afraid were judging me.

This trigger usually revealed itself in the form of a football teammate, a teacher, or a business collaboration - previous parts of my identity I had not yet fully integrated into my new way of being.

I’ve realized this:

The types of people I fear judging these parts of me are just mirrors of areas I am still judging myself.

Because the football player, student, and entrepreneur within me still had a false perception of how a football player, student, or entrepreneur was “supposed to be like,” I would judge myself for stepping outside of the predefined box, and project the idea I was being judged onto others (which was probably not true).

However, things have shifted, especially over the past month.

The embodiment of my new frequency and self-image has begun to crystallize.

Now, if someone asks me about astrology, ayahuasca, or any of the things I am creating, I feel embodied and in integrity speaking about these things.

I am becoming known around this school and even on my team as someone who does tarot and astrology readings, has done a lot of psychedelics, and is very woo-woo and spiritual.

I’m begun giving friends astrology readings between classes, guessing teammates signs, and at a party I hosted last weekend, I ended up giving oracle and astrology readings to 6-7 people.

And I’ll tell you what.

It feels LIBERATING to fully embody these sides of myself.

Yeah, I might be the only quarterback in the country who is an astrologist and psychic.

But that doesn’t mean anything is wrong or weird.

It’s simply who I am.

Coming to full embodiment and internal peace with my authentic frequency has me feeling freer than ever before.

Digital Mercenary

In addition to school and football, I’ve been building.

A lot.

This has partially been out of pure love and passion, and partially out of need.

I made not-the-wisest decision picking my apartment for this year (as it’s pretty f*cking expensive).

I chose it, somewhat in a rush, thinking that “this price tag will force me to become the type of entrepreneur who easily makes $X a month.”

In many ways, this has been true.

I have massively upped my skill set since returning to Illinois.

But a big part of this process that I didn’t account for is how much stress it would provide me.

I’ve basically been living month to month since I returned from Thailand last September.

There is a bit of shame as I say that, as I am someone who positions myself as a sovereign creator and entrepreneur, yet I am constantly scrambling for income and on the fence as to whether I should get a job waiting tables at a steakhouse at night to make ends meet.

Now, things have never gotten to that point. I’ve always been able to come up with something, build it, and market it just in the nick of time.

But I am frankly exhausted of this mental cycle of worrying about finances.

I went so far into the mental frame of “trust the universe” and “everything is working out perfectly” that I forgot to take practical responsibility for my worldly self and manage my 3D life.

Essentially, I went so far into the spiritual path with ayahuasca and esoteric study that I forgot the importance of my material nature.

The integration process of everything I’ve learned and experienced is more material than I wanted to see at first.

Now, this situation and the stress that has come from it have made me stronger.

We know from how muscles are built in the weight room or diamonds are formed in a cave that stress makes things stronger and more antifragile.

I have experienced this, and my skillset has broadened and sharpened as a result.

• I can now whip up a new website in less than a week (something I always wrote off as being unable to do)

• I can easily cross-multiply content across platforms

• I have marketed so many offers I can do it in my sleep

• I can read anyone’s entire astrology chart in a few minutes

Though the fruits of the work have been inconsistent and sporadic, the real fruits have been the person I’ve become and the skillset I’ve acquired in the process.

Alex Hormozi, very wisely said,

“The work works on you more than you work on it.”

I have definitely experienced this to be true.

And all of the building, creating, and refining of my skillset has culminated in a few cohort launches, communities that have been brewing in my mind for years that are finally almost ready, a new frequency coaching offer, a personal website, a Thailand retreat, a digital universe that is all coming together, and most recently a new marketing position for Aubrey Marcus.

In these past 5 months at school, I’ve been forced to get really good at managing my time, multitasking, and holding multiple ideas in my mind at once. I’ve deepened my embodiment into my manifesting generator energy in Human Design.

Now, on the other side of school, with added time and space this summer and beyond this school year, I know life without external responsibilities (school and football) will feel 10x easier.

A New Role

As I briefly touched on earlier, I started a new job this past Monday doing marketing strategy and execution for Aubrey Marcus.

This is something that’s been brewing for months.

It started by looking at a hard truth:

Making money full-time off of coaching, cohorts, and communities is something that will take both time and operating from a baseline frequency of abundance to embody fully.

Unless I wanted to keep scrambling month to month and have a root chakra that was never fully grounded, I needed a stable job (something psychics and astrologers had told me for months that I didn’t want to see).

So I started by asking myself the question:

“What’s something I can do that’s aligned with my skillset and keeps me in spiritual integrity?”

The second part was the most important.

I have ghostwritten for a number of brands and fitness accounts that felt off. I’d use marketing techniques and language to prey on people’s fears and insecurities, knowing I had to for the job, but knowing in my heart and soul it felt wrong. I always felt out of alignment when doing these gigs.

I began to think of creators and brands with messages resonant with my own values, and made a list of 10 podcasters I could synthesize content for, distribute it across social media, and do marketing strategy on the backend.

The first person I wrote down was Aubrey.

I had a friend who worked within his companies before, so I presented her my idea, wrote a sample thread for his twitter, they posted it, and it went viral.

Then for 3 months, I heard nothing.

The timing wasn’t right (both for them and for myself).

But finally, and through the guidance of some psychics and astrologers to persist and “activate my solar plexus,” a few meetings happened, and the gig manifested.

There was also a wild synchronicity related to the solar plexus that included both Aubrey and Jordan Peterson.

The solar plexus is the 3rd chakra, and is our center of power, confidence, and assertiveness.

I’ve always had a slight blockage in my solar plexus, especially in the presence of other powerful men.

A few days before my call with Aubrey, I went to go see Jordan Peterson with my dad in Chicago.

As we walked into a steakhouse before the event, we were waiting to be seated, and in walks Jordan Peterson right behind us.

I felt that same sensation of anxiety arise directly in my solar plexus as I had felt my entire life, but only for half a second.

It faded as I shook his hand and introduced myself, and I felt surprisingly grounded and embodied.

That handshake felt like a cosmic intervention to supercharge my confidence, power, and entire solar plexus area. It felt as if a bolt of universal electricity was transferred from JP to myself in that moment and supercharged my solar plexus.

A few days later, I got on a call with Aubrey (a similar powerful masculine archetype to JP), and again felt my solar plexus activate, and I was grounded, embodied, and confident in myself throughout the call.

From there, I got the offer, and now I am just beginning my work there this week!

Little do Aubrey and JP know the significance of those interactions, but they were incredibly powerful for me.

The Comedy Of It All

There have been multiple times this semester when I’ve just had to stop and laugh at how absurd this all is:

• Being out on the football field playing 7v7 against our defense under the full moon.

• Freaking out about how I’m going to pay taxes while I’m throwing the ball around at football practice.

• Singing in the choir in front of my parents and cousins after never being in a music class my entire life.

I’ve had so many strange, unpredictable experiences this semester.

Just as I’ve often said how you access new experiences and insights you’d never experience otherwise by traveling, writing online, or doing psychedelics, I have now gained insights and wisdom being back in college I never would have found had I never returned.

I can’t fully explain or know why all of the things I’ve learned matter, or how they will come together down the line, but it seems as though it is helping in my “bridge-building” development of guiding people towards the New Earth.

The culmination of this internal transformation into this new world was sitting on the floor, giving people Oracle and Astrology readings until 1 am at the first house party I ever hosted.

Now, I never could have predicted THAT - but it was some of the most fun I’ve had this entire semester, and in my entire life.

Overall, this semester has been incredibly transformative, challenging, and magical.

I’ve talked before about writing a book called “Trust Yourself,” but I’ve realized I’m still living in one of the most important chapters of the book.

The book will come, but the time is not yet. (:

Anyways, thank you for reading!

And again…

Check out the Thailand Expedition retreat this summer, my 1:1 calls, and my 1:1 Frequency Elevation Program.

Until the next letter - “How To Set Yourself Free Spiritually, Part 2.”

Peace ✌🏼🩵

Jack