I’ve Been Back In Illinois For 2 Months

I’m not going to lie.

It’s been a difficult transition.

Over the past 2 years, I’ve grown very accustomed to controlling every aspect of my day, only taking calls at certain times, living in warm areas with lots of sun, and focusing my energy on business, fitness, and spiritual growth.

Now there are some new variables in the picture. I’m taking 6 classes and am quarterback of a college football team. On weekdays, I’ve gone from an open calendar and full creative freedom to being in class and going to football workouts from 9:30 to 6:00. In the coming weeks, we’ll be starting practices from 9:30 to 11:30 pm (yes, PM) a few nights a week. Needless to say, it’s been a biggg shift in my lifestyle.

This shift has at times taken its toll. I’ve revisited burnout. I’ve fallen back into vices. I’ve revisited depressive episodes. I’ve worn myself down physically and emotionally. I’ve had periods of doubt, worry, stress, and questioning if I can really do this.  

I’ve said before that it feels like God and my higher self are putting me through “The Road of Trials” in my hero’s journey, the testing grounds and training camp for the rest of my life, one that I feel is destined to require me to juggle many things at the same time.

As long as I hold this perspective, I know I’m exactly where I’m meant to be. 

Despite the lows, I’m good, don’t worry (: 

It’s just that life hasn’t all been sunshine and rainbows, though, of course, most of what I put on social media tends to be the highlights.

These two months have been an incredible learning experience. I’m learning to maintain an elevated frequency and connection to God in the depths of the matrix. I’m learning how to “play the games” (school, football, casual relationships) while remembering I am not the game. I’m learning to stay tapped into my intuitive gifts and abilities at the most unexpected times, like taking a test or giving a speech in front of a class. I can already sense immense growth in areas I wouldn’t have discovered if I had continued on the digital nomad path.

I also feel the tide is beginning to turn in all areas. As I write this newsletter, my energy feels back, I feel vital, healthy, and strong, and my digital universe of products and services is coming together.

It’s taken about two months to secure a solid footing and a comfortable routine here. I’m just now finding my flow, dialing in my systems, and learning to dance through it all.

Funny enough, it’s been dancing at raves, taking days off, and playing basketball in my free time that seem to be the catalysts for this recent upswing and shift. It seems like the less I try and force anything and let myself flow and live, the better everything works out, and the easier it all feels.

Throughout the rest of this letter, I’m going to talk about some perspective shifts I’ve had, coming full circle to peak performance, and my refined visions for my digital universe and the rest of my life.

Let’s dive in.

Revisiting Routines, Systems, & Peak Performance

For the better majority of my time writing online, I was known as the “peak performance guy.” I made a free course called the Peak Performance Primer, launched a cohort called “Creator Performance,” and even was a personal performance coach to other entrepreneurs and creators on Twitter.

I loved this period. I went deep into neuroscience, flow psychology, and business systems. I just didn’t have a perspective yet on consciousness or spirituality because my awareness had not yet opened to the metaphysical and esoteric.

As I traversed the spiritual path and opened to many psychedelic and plant medicine experiences, ayahuasca ceremonies, and other-dimensional insights and communication, I fell away from all things peak performance. I was operating almost purely from my yin, feminine, free-flowing side, literally launching businesses and retreats through the pull of a Tarot card, a bird flying through the sky, or a sound in my environment. It felt like I was a leaf blowing in the wind, and the universe was guiding me in each moment.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I am still very much doing all of these things. I am still living my life by signs and synchroncities and whispers from the universe. But yet again, I am returning to the middle way, with an increased emphasis on masculine energy. 

I’m back to planning, whiteboards, systems, Google Calendar, launch strategies, vision boards, roadmaps, biohacking, nootropics, and all things peak performance.

And it feels fucking great.

I’m now learning to integrate the spiritual into the practical, and fuse higher-dimensional awareness with 3rd-dimensional building and innovation.

To be honest, it often feels like I have a secret ace up my sleeve as I’m pulling tarot cards on a business call, swinging a pendulum to filter for truth, and launching new projects based on planetary movements and how current astrological events impact my zodiac chart.

I believe in the future, these things will become more mainstream, but for now, the spiritual entrepreneurs oftentimes operate as closet mystics. I guess now I’m coming out of the closet - haha (;

But now, let’s get back to the practical.

Amidst the chaos, I’m finding these things crucial for maintaining mental fluidity, high energy, and flow:

• High-quality sleep - So basic and so often overlooked but so, so important

• Red light - I bought a red light from my friend Nick (Based Ethos) a few months back, and it’s been a game-changer for maintaining high energy and a clean circadian rhythm despite the cold, Illinois winter.

• Grounding - As long as there’s no snow on the ground, a staple for my morning routine has become putting my feet in the grass and staring at the sun. Even if it’s just for a few minutes, I feel much more relaxed, focused, and in my body for the rest of the day.

• Getting to inbox zero - If I can end of the day with a clean digital inbox, I get much better sleep that night and start the next day mentally fresh. In practice, this looks like deleting the email as it arises, answering messages across platforms, and closing open loops at the end of the day before bed.

• Clean workspace and living space - Everything is energy, and so maintaining fluid, creative energy means maintaining a fluid, clean space. If I take too long to clean, my mind becomes cluttered, energy becomes stagnant, and flies even begin to appear (beings that feed on negative energy). Sundays have become big cleaning days for me, but it’s just as important to keep things fresh day in and day out.

• High-frequency food, water, music, & clothes - I used to be a big intermittent fasting / one-meal-a-day guy. But recently, I’ve been on the fruit & coffee til noon wave, and it feels like intermittent fasting on steroids. My mind is sharp. My energy is high. And I feel I’m getting lean naturally while probably eating 3500 calories a day. Then, in the evening, I’m having some sort of grass-fed meat, raw cheese, and veggies. I’ve also been trying to stick to drinking out of glass Mountain Valley bottles, only wearing cotton and linen, and listening to only high-vibe music. I haven’t been perfect with these things, but it’s become clear to me that everything is frequency and vibration, so I’m trying to maintain an elevated frequency through the things I can control — and that means dialing in my food, water, clothing, and music.

• High vibe conversations - A big reason why I’ve restarted recording my podcast so frequently is because it’s an opportunity to have high vibe, conscious, aligned conversations with great people. The depth of the conversations here in college are often times very surface level and do not fuel my mind and soul, and so the podcast has become a great way to supplement this. I’ll be recording a podcast with my great friend Danny Miranda this Sunday, so be sure to subscribe here so you don’t miss it.

• Systems & calendar - If I take 20 minutes on Sunday to plan out my week, with yoga classes, football throwing sessions, and deep work blocks, my week goes 10x better.. You can access the Sunday Systems Planning Sheet I use every Sunday here.

• Setting up for the next day the night before - If I have my tasks outlined, computer set up with the document I’ll be working on, clothes laid out, bag packed, water with electrolytes out, and red light set up, rolling into a high frequency the next day is so much easier than having to scramble and put everything together in the morning.

Moving Out Of Scarcity 

Just as I’ve been dancing on the edge of reality with spiritual experiences and new endeavors, I’ve also been dancing on the edge of my bank account.

I made about $200,000 in the last few years in the creator economy. I also spent about $200,000. Ever since I went backpacking Thailand this summer and temporarily abandoned all things business and creator economy, I’ve been very much living month to month, week to week, and sometimes even day to day.

This situation has caused an increase in creative offer creation and marketing. Over the past few months, I’ve made money on retreats, tarot card readings, astrology breakdowns, vision calls, consulting deals, ghostwriting gigs, and quantum healing cohorts. I’ve learned to be ultra-creative and agile with my business moves because life has required it.

But this way of living and doing business has been quite exhausting and stress-inducing. For months, I’d wake up each day and wonder how I was going to make money. I was operating from scarcity constantly, even though I knew the laws of abundance, frequency, wealth creation, leverage, and manifestation intellectually.

During these months, I was always able to figure it out, but I’ve become tired of this chaotic dance. Now that I’ve become grounded in one place for a bit of time, it’s become clear it is time to build businesses that are repeatable, scaleable, and grounded.

Yet again, it was a sign in my external environment that made this clear.

I’ve been driving downtown to see my grandmother a few times a week, and each time I pass a warehouse with a huge “Evergreen” logo on the side of the building.

Each time I pass it, it gets me thinking.

How can I create a business that’s evergreen?

How can I create something sustainable, repeatable, with leverage?

How can I cover my baseline expenses with a business that’s aligned with my higher purpose (helping people achieve freedom and raising consciousness) so that I can free myself up to create freely, authentically, and from the heart?

And so, after a lot of head-down building and ideation over the past few months, it’s beginning to all come together.

In the meantime, I’m offering tarot card readings, astrology readings, and brand consulting calls here.

Building My Digital Universe

I’ve come to some new conclusions about money.

I don’t care about it.

I see it as a tool to build purposeful projects, facilitate social change, empower personal expansion, and create the lifestyle I want.

What’s more exciting to me than setting a north star of X dollars is setting a north star of building a Digital Universe. And via quantum physics, timeline jumping, and manifestation, I now know that following my highest excitement will lead to my highest timeline in the quantum field.

So, instead of my north star being some dollar amount, I’ve reframed my target to building a Digital Universe of products and services that solve my money problem and allow me to pursue what I believe to be my life’s purpose and soul’s mission - spreading love, raising consciousness, and expanding internal and external freedom.

I’m going to break down my vision for my Digital Universe here so you can see how I’m thinking about this game:

• Sovereign Creators is a low-ticket monthly community to help beginners take the first steps towards digital freedom, authentic expression, and elevated consciousness.

• Conscious Creators (launching 3/14) is a mid-ticket 9-week cohort to help creators build their own digital universe of products and services in line with their highest selves and a higher purpose.

• Transcendence is an internal-healing based business leveraging community and cohorts via the Rasha, meditation, breathwork, sound healing, subconscious reprogramming, quantum physics, and spirituality to help individuals raise consciousness.

• My Stan.Store will contain an array of different free products like Creative Work 101 (just re-released), The Peak Performance Primer, and a Sunday Systems planning worksheet, high-ticket $999 courses called “Internet Freedom” and “Emotional Freedom” a host of low-ticket $33 products ranging from topics like health and vitality to basic social media marketing information to an “Understand Yourself” course with astrology, psychology, human design, ayurveda, and deep childhood introspection and reflection, and $111 tarot readings and $400 astrology and future readings.

• On the social media side of things, I envision an omnipresent content system with YouTube, podcasts, Telegram, newsletter, Twitter, Threads, and Linkedin.

• I even see an eventual health brand/affiliate play as an angle with my return to football.

I outlined how I’m outlining my vision and value ladder (and how you can outline yours) in the final module of Creative Work 101.

Conscious Creators is my most immediate project. It will be launching 3/14 and beginning 4/1. Message me privately via email or Telegram to join the program at a 44% early-enrollee discount.

I am fully owning my identity as a massive generalist

I am interested in marketing, psychology, astrology, mysticism, tarot, Kabbalah, funnels, digital ecosystems, content, writing, speaking, podcasting, esoteric health, vitality, sports, aesthetics, and design. 

The picture has sometimes felt foggier on “what I should do” because my interests are so broad.

But the broad interests are leading to an all-encompassing, holistic, cross-disciplinary digital universe.

This seems like a lot, I know.

But I am chipping away at this universe piece by piece.

I was told once by an astrologer that I have a Hanuman Circuit in my chart, which means I am built to “accomplish the impossible task through task orientation and devotion.”

So that is my journey right now.

It feels like this year back in college in Illinois is building the foundation of my digital universe for the rest of my life.

Bit by bit, the universe is coming together.

And let me tell you, it’s way more fun to build and think about the video game of online business this way.

Not as a job. Not as a burden. But as the architecting of a digital universe aligned with my higher purpose and the reason I believe I was put on this earth - to help guide people to freedom, both externally and internally.

Redefining My Vision For My Life

Being back in the matrix of society for two months, going to classes I don’t really care about, witnessing endless shallow, surface level conversations, and living in the frigid Illinois winter has reminded me of the life I don’t want to live, and sharpening my vision for the life I want to create.

It feels like I am back where I was 2 ½ years ago when I started in this online game, but now already having experienced digital freedom, digital nomading, and digital leverage, I have a much more all-encompassing vision not only of the online game, but also of life as a whole.

2 ½ years ago, the extent of my vision for life was to create online income to escape the 9-5 and be free. Now, after 2 years of living a free lifestyle, partaking in dozens of psychedelic journeys and ayahuasca ceremonies, and experiencing a rapid expansion in consciousness, the scope of my vision is much different.

Yes, I still want to create a life of freedom via online business, but I know how to do that now.  I’ve realized that’s just the tip of the iceberg. Now, I’ve seen the vision as much broader. I want to create products, services, and communities that elevate human consciousness. I couldn’t see that 2 ½ years ago because I wasn’t ready.

I also know now I want to live in the sun, DJ at music festivals, host consciousness elevation festivals, and be semi-nomadic.

My 2026 vision is to live in Mykonos.

But for now, I am in Illinois, and I will be here for at least another 10 months.

So rather than fight it or resent it (things that have come up when I have to write a school paper or study for a test), my work is to fully embrace where I’m at and learn to love life here.

I had a dream last night that I was in the belly of a whale.

But I wasn’t alone.

I was with all of my family and friends inside of that whale.

In mythology and religious texts, the whale symbolizes a period of deep transformation, surrender, and rebirth. It’s a journey through darkness that ultimately leads to wisdom and renewal.

In the Bible, Jonah is swallowed by a whale after trying to flee his divine calling, and spends three days inside before emerging reborn, surrendered to his destiny, and finding a second chance to fulfill his purpose.

Pinochio was also swallowed by a whale with his father, and it was only once he emerged from the whale with newfound responsibility and realizations that he became a “real boy.”

Anyways, this dream seems to symbolically represent an alchemy occurring not only in myself, but in those closest to me from home. I have noticed a lot of shifts recently.

I had a very deep, mystical conversation, talking about my ayahuasca journey and spiritual opening with my aunt last night for 2 hours. In the hospital elevator last week, while visiting my grandmother with my dad and aunt, a little rubber Jesus fell out of seemingly thin air and landed right on my aunt's purse. My mom keeps seeing the number 4:38, an angel number. My sister keeps noticing signs about God and sending them to me. My football teammates and friends are sharing mystical experiences with me and asking friends.

I believe this dream was a symbol that I am not alone on this transformation journey, and that there is a monumental rebirth and opening occurring not only in myself, but also in those closest to me here. This feels like a big reason why I am here this year, as lots of chaos in family life is leading to deeper connections, awareness, and spiritual growth. 

I am supposed to be here for this. This current layer of my purpose is to surrender into my identity as a son, grandson, brother, and friend, a leader of a football team, a student who goes class (sometimes) and graduate, and to maintain an unwavering devotion to staying true to myself, staying awake, and staying connected to God.

The travel, the freedom, and the sun will come again. 

But for now, I am here, I am building, I am present, and I am grateful.

Thank you for reading

I am getting back to writing a weekly newsletter, and having a ton of fun (:

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Until next Sunday,

~ Jack